Well... I did it again... I let life go by without my nuggets of thought for the day on my blog. Got a notice about a friend's new blog (love the site Peanut!) and remembered mine. I really want to do this bloggin thing. I LOVE to write. I LOVE to share. I LOVE to talk! Are you kidding me? This is PERFECT for me! I really mean to do this. I make an entry and fully intend to return the next day. I mean seriously, has anyone that knows me every known me to NOT have something to say? Hello... a blog where I just share and share! Right up my alley!

But, then suddenly, here I sit a month, two, or MANY later thinking to myself... well, I did it again! I failed to do the blog thing! So, thanks to my friend "Peanut", I am back again tonight to share my nugget for the day. It is quite obvious this time, I think! Here goes... if you have a blog and don't keep up with it, just get to it when you can because that probably means you are LIVING life. That is a good, good thing. Don't sweat the small stuff. (I mean seriously, has anyone even ASKED about my blog?) So I didn't blog daily and I meant to. Did I hug my daughter instead? Did I pray with my son in my spare moments? Did I cry over rebellion in teens? Did I touch a special needs child for the better? Did I love my husband unconditionally? Did I serve my precious Master and Savior? Then, missing the blog shouldn't bring me guilt. It just means I will get to it when I can get to it... or maybe even more profound... when I am MEANT to get to it as ordained by the Maker of my days! I will not feel sad over my blog any longer. I will remember that I am sharing those nuggets I would like to write about, in my daily living with those God places in my path each day. I will cherish what I am living, share it whenever I can, and enjoy those that are more proficient at theirs than I am at mine!

But when I can, I will blog with joy! I have so much life story to share. I don't know if anyone really wants to know it, but I feel it matters because it has all been ordained by God. Every single moment. I want to share the good, good blessings that have come through MUCH trial, MUCH fire, MUCH hurt, and MUCH joy. I will tell of my children. I will tell of my husband. I will tell of my God. I will tell... and tell... and tell because all of it leads back to where it all began in me in the first place.... to my Creator and the good, good news that came through my personal Savior, Jesus Christ. Blog, shout, live... all for Him.

okay so quick update of A LOT....Since I last wrote, we have moved cities... BIG changes. My husband lost his job, God led us to a new adventure, 10 1/2 hours from home, and we remain smack dab in the midst of more of growth by trial, fire, and joy adventures. It has been a rough year for the pocket book, but I can't begin to tell you the depth of joy that we have found in the middle of it all because God has been faithful. We miss our friends and family back home in ways I cannot express in writing. Sometimes I ache for a hug from my mom and dad or the comfortableness found in old friendships to the point of pure longing. But at the very same time, beautiful people have been planted in our lives here and relationships are blossoming and growing and it is so refreshing and exciting.

Corny as it is, I think of the Aladdin song, "A Whole New World." We have searched and waited and in the last few weeks, realize we have found our new church home... our "planting place" as I choose to term it. We are THRILLED with HOW God has shown us this is where He intends to use us. I have fallen totally in love with my special needs students. We have nestled in and we are family in that classroom. They hurt, I hurt. They flourish, I flourish! Their view is a constant reminder to me of PURE view. I want to be more like them! My youngest has started kindergarten and I have been journal-ing "Dramatic Flair from the Kinder Corner." What a JOY it is to relive Kindergarten again through her eyes! My older kids are developing into such individuals. The older two are struggling.... adoption roots and laying down some strong holds make for some tough nights on the knees.... but still yet, at the end of the day, I look up to Heaven and claim, "Raise them in the way they are to go and the will NOT part from it when they are old!" Such hope. My son has taken his stand for Jesus and absolutely, in even new and changing circumstances, has remained more faithful to the cross than anyone I have ever known. The journey has so many levels of fascination, I simply haven't the time or even understanding to share it all. I can just say, the journey is real and fully evident that we are not at all the orchestrator of our days. We are either obedient or rebellious, but a God, worthy of all our praise, is the ultimate concluder of every event.

That is why we have to just keep walking with Him as close as we possibly can. We can't depend on "our way" because we would linger too long and miss what is next. We would fix things that aren't broken and wrongly mend something that could have been fully repaired by the expert had we stayed out of the way. So we lay it down at the Master's feet, fully anticipating that in a blink of an eye, we will be with Him, reunited with our beloved son, Eathan, that we miss every day of our lives, smiling knowingly that every detail was completely worked out.... PERFECTLY.

And even if and when I dropped the blogging ball! WHEW!

Until next time... hopefully that won't be in months from now!

May the God that I love and have come to know so personally, show Himself so clear to you, that you will no longer be able to live without Him for even one more moment... that is my prayer for all....

Robin

I will write again. Adoption is on my heart to share..... I am beginning to think that is a blog of its own. We will see.... we will see. My children are growing and maturing and changing before my eyes each day. Most of my nuggets to share on here are completely surrounded in what I learn parenting them. Thank goodness me and my best friend do it together and love it passionately and as priority above all else other than Christ our Lord!