Red and yellow, black and white!

Before reading, please forgive misspells and grammer mistakes. I am typing from my iPhone on strong pain medication and do not have the persistence it will require to figure out spell check and etc from this format!

I'm laying here post surgery, really struggling in my spirit. Pain is pretty intense and I'm usually high pain tolerant. Plus it's the priceless days of summer and the days are slipping away one-by-one without those captured moments of joy I crave. And it goes without saying when I hurt physically, my heart is drawn to my little Eathan who suffered more than most of us can comprehend. Wouldn't take much for me to be singing the blues. Brycelynn got a stomach bug, Todd got a high fever, Robin gets more overwhelmed, here cone the blues!

But I don't like the blues. They don't come natural nor do they sit well with me. I've taken my drugs, I'm in as comfortable of a position as I can find, I've already rehashed some of the anesthesia laughter I invoked while not in my right mind, so what can I do. Oh, I know! I will go look at the kids youth camp blog for the thousandth time to try catch a glimpse of their week away where they are making memories of the most wonderful kind. So I start to surf the sea of faces (1500 kids at this camp) half heartedly, being in my blue mood, not really expecting to see them as a lonely mom would really wanna see them. Then, boom! Just like that God comes through and my blue mood is blown wide open by the most beautiful sea of color.

One click, then another, scanning the pages, when all of the sudden, there he is. Seth! Up close enough for me to see his smile, but honestly, that wasn't what grabbed me, shook me up, and burst my heart into a rainbow of celebration. It was all the faces smiling around him. Seth went to camp, unwilling to request roommates. He said he likes to see what God does with a blank slate. As this picture clicked up, it was clearly a roommate group picture in their condo (yes I said condo. Brats are at beach retreat at South padre Island) and immediately my mood shifted, my heart began to race, and I was thinking clearer than I had in five days through these pain meds.

Standing their smiling at me, my son right smack dab in the middle, was a group of boys obviously chosen to be grouped together by God, who is the Master of His beautiful creations! Seth was standing amongst just about every race and skin color of our world. There was no majority or minority. Just a perfect display of diversity that represents the amazing colors of all of God's children. My heart instantly pulled up the old childhood song, "red and yellow, black, and white! They are precious in His sight!" and my spirit overflowed with joy and anticipation of just how BIG God was working this week in those boys lives. We are a family that loves all people... At least we try! The ones we struggle with doesn't have a thing to do with skin color, but attitude color! But the reality is, our daily lives are spent with those most like us on the outside. But this week, at least in that condo, God absolutely must be solidifying the joy of realizing what the family of God looks like... And it ain't skin color... it's Who is the heart holder!


I am suddenly incredibly aware of how much more impacting this week is for those youth than I even realized. And how blessed I am that God has thrown my busy body to bed without choice so that I have all the time in the world to pray. Pray for what He is doing at camp, what He is doing in my heart, and to get ready for whatever BIG things are ahead that He would grant me such precious time to prepare.

Funny, I no longer feel the blues or feel the grief of thinking of how much more my baby boy sufferes than I can imagine! Instead, I feel a connection to Eathan's heart realizing this is how he viewed life at all times in his little body's painful journey! My nugget for the day to pass on from Eathanis see the world from the view of pureness in Christ. When you do, radiant rainbows of color glorify the earth in far more ways the arched in the majestic sky!

Painfully pleased this day!!

Robin